.:So Many:.

So many times I've felt lost
So many times I've cried over issues
So many fears that have built up inside
So many nights laying in bed, heart aching
So many times I was blamed for everything
So many times I fell through the cracks
So many times where I was asked to be fake
So many times I was shot down
So many days I've been alone
So many moments you may have felt were wasted
So many words left unspoken
So many things I've ruined
So many times I've made you regret me
So many of my weaknesses you've found
So many occasions I was manipulated
So many fights where I ran away
So many threats of you leaving
So many useless apologies
So many dreams without you there
So many pointless arguements
So many wrong decisions
So many undeserved "I love you's"
So many unanswered prayers
So many times where I never fit in.
So many times where I wanted to hug you and cry.
So many moments where I needed you, and you werent there...